Here in Idaho we have snow and ice, cold temperatures and blue skies! I love this kind of weather it reminds me of the house on the hill waking up to glistening snow on the trees and icicles that hung from the top deck. Childhood memories flood back and a warm sensation keeps me feeling safe and happy!
I am ready to make another list of the things that I am grateful for. These are more specific to my progress with anxiety and daily functioning. Of course I am grateful for my parents, children, grandchildren and friends. Some changes are small and others are huge, or at least they are for me. I hope that this inspires at least one person, makes them feel they are not alone and life does move forward!
- I am grateful that I can take still continue to take a full walk outside and enjoy it without anxiety!
- I am grateful that I can still cook a meal and have renewed my love for cooking.
- I am grateful that I can still clean the house without panicking.
- I am grateful for and to my blogging friends. The shame and guilt that I have carried is now in the light and thanks to each person who comments, likes and supports me in this journey I am able to feel more open and able to share! This is truly my special safe place! I am able to reveal more things that happened without fear.
- I am still not able to drive unless it is totally necessary but I feel I have made progress.
- I am grateful that I have continued blogging three times a week. Some days it is difficult to interact and while I miss my good friends sometimes I just want to stay isolated, but my goal of blogging three times a week has helped me to keep a normal schedule and routine in my daily life.
- I am grateful that I am back to eating more fruits and vegetables. Before he came I had lowered my cholesterol, lost weight and was lifting weights. After he left everything fell apart. We spent those three weeks staying out of the house,driving around town, eating fast food and not being mindful of health. It has taken me almost three years to get back on track!!!
- I am grateful for the forgiveness that I have given to myself. I forgave him, his wife, but never truly forgave me!!
- I am grateful that I can now see how I want to put my book together. I am working on it when I feel up to it.
- I am grateful that my mind is now clearing and I can process everyday life.
- I am grateful that I can feel joy even if it is fleeting.
- I am grateful that I am starting to care about me!
What an inspiring list, Lynn. I think we all could heed the call to forgive and take better care of ourselves. (K)
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Thanks so much K xo
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I am grateful that you are moving forward Lynn 💜
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Thanks so much Willow xo
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Forgiveness is the big one as sometimes we have to forgive over and over. Your positive list is admirable
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Thanks so much dear Joseph! xx
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You’re welcome
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Lynn
I am grateful that you are alive to share your life with us- or how would we know how one person could be so cruel to another human being.
I am glad you have forgiven yourself and are not beating yourself anymore.
I am glad your health goals are back on track.
What is the price of divorcing him? Why can’t it be done ?
Susie
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I have thought of it so many times and have tried. First, he is not a resident of this state and so they might not be able to decide assets, custody etc. Second, basically he is not here and it will be hard to notify him and make sure he has been notified properly. Third really so much FEAR! HE always manages to convince everyone around him of anything! I have seen him convince family members, professional people regarding financial issues etc. So I am waiting for now and happy he has not come back. If he says he is coming I will file for divorce.
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Wow Lynn that is hard! From what I’ve read, a person should never try to fight a narcissist in court without a good attorney who is experienced in dealing with that type of person. Like you said, they always manage to convince people in their favor. A relative had this problem, but with her awesome attorney, the judge saw right through him. Just something to keep in mind, hopefully this helps!
Take care!
Debra
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Thanks so much!
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Your list shows how much growth you have had too in these past few years! I’m so grateful for YOU!! xoxo
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Thanks so much KR! You are a fun, sweet and supportive friend and I am very grateful for knowing you 😊
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Indeed you have much to be grateful for, Lynn.
Leslie ❤
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Thank you Leslie ❤️❤️
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Great list Lynn!
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Thank!
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….and we are grateful that you are moving forward so well Lynn. Hugs.
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Thanks so much Peter
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Lynn, your list touched me again… most of all number 12 💖 Your gratitude shows your beautiful soul shining through the lines. Sending you big hugs 💖
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Thanks dear Erika xxxx
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You are so welcome, my dear Lynn!
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May God continue to bless and guide you on this journey of healing.
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Thank you so much xx
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You are well on your way Lynn. God bless. 🌼🌼🌼
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xoxo
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What a beautiful list, Lynn. There are some huge steps in there. Blessings, my friend. ❤
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Thanks dear
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You’re doing great Lynz. Keep moving forward at your pace and minimize looking back There is a much brighter future and enhanced happiness as you progress in your life among your loving family and friends.
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You’re doing great Lynz. Keep moving forward at your pace and minimize looking back There is a much brighter future and enhanced happiness as you progress in your life among your loving family and friends.
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Thanks so much Gary x
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You deserve every wonderful moment that you enjoy in Idaho. I wish for many more lovely simple moments of enjoyment and will enjoy them vicariously with you. K x
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Thank you K xx
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a beautiful gratitude list.
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Thank you xx
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Thank you for reminding me of the power of gratitude. ❤
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You are most welcome
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One day at a time and stay bless, dear sister. ❤
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Thanks so much dear Syl x
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You’re very welcome! 🤗🤗
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Well done Lyn…you will overcome. 😀
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Thank you
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Keep at it, Lynn. I think that forgiveness point is most telling
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Thank so much derrick
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And the most important point of gratitude on your list is the last one … may that journey continue and bloom for you xxx
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Xoxo
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Your list is full of wonderful things to be grateful for, Lynn. Every item on your list indicates how you have moved forward.
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Thank you Franci! You are an amazing friend!
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Hugs! xo
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Love this Lynn! I enjoyed reading what you are grateful for and am so happy you are doing better. What a long road for you!
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Thanks dear Antonia ❤️
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Little steps turn into big steps and then to leaps and bounds! The reason my handle is pricelessjoy is because I couldn’t feel joy for a long time then one day, I was so much better mentally that I finally felt joy and it was priceless! Big hugs Lynn!! xoxoxoxo
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Thanks for telling me this dear PJ xoxo so glad you feel it xx
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Sweet Lynn, one day you will feel it too and you will know what I mean. It will come, I promise!
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Thank you so much xxx
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xoxoxoxo
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Xoxo
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I call this your list of triumphs, Lynn. You are making huge strides in becoming the person you want to be.
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Thanks so much
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This is all so wonderful Lynn. I am so pleased for you. Hugs. xxx
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Thanks dear lynne
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Oh my dear sister, you are so worth forgiving yourself, you above everyone should carry no guilt for what he put you through, it was him, only him and he owns all the BS he put you through, I love this list…..I am so grateful for you….you have made my life fuller, made me a stronger woman, and have let me enjoy your wonderful family, watch the babies grow and just so grateful for all the smiles you have brought to my heart. You deserve nothing but happiness and peace…..keep writing, keep walking, keep cooking, drive with the windows down, wind blowing through your hair and the music up loud, please keep stepping forward head held high, you are worthy of love, happiness and anything you damn well want!!! Love ya sister…keep smiling……xxxkat
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You are my special sister! Love you Kat xoxo
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Number 12 is the best thing you’ve ever written x x x
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Thanks so much xoxo
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You are a strong woman Lynz. Don’t be afraid of your strength. I am fully confident that a way will open for you to resolve your relationship issues whether they are legal or emotional. Wishing you all the best.
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Thanks so much xx
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I’m so happy that you’re beginning to care for you!!! Keep up the great progress Lynn. Sending HUGS! xx
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Thanks❤️
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Love you site
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Thank you
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Great list. i love to reading your blog!!
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Thank you so much!
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Lovely post ❤ Would you mind looking at my blog we might share a few interests
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