I edged closer to the tiny parking spot that stood above Frat row. It was a cement slab just big enough to accomodate a large vehicle but still unnerved me each time I navigated onto the platform. Plastic bags were grabbed in batches and hauled over the rugged path and into the door of the old brick building. It was grocery day and that meant unloading and preparing a “fast food” meal including plenty of variety for those with dietary restrictions. I stuffed bags inside of each other forming a large ball of sacks that would be used for trash bags at a later time. Several packs of ground beef were placed into a large skillet and stirred, smashing them into smaller bits. The familiar sound of sizzling and the smell of taco meat would soon bring girls into the kitchen. Soos, Heme and Deeja made themselves busy with coloring books and crayons, cards and stickers. They placed themselves at a wooden table just outside the kitchen where residents would soon sit after dishing up their last meal for the day. Sullen faces stared blankly at my workstation and I knew that our discussion regarding school had still left them confused and fearful.
That day we had walked through the rickety wooden gate and into the school yard that lead to a side door. I kissed each one goodbye and delivered them to their respective classrooms, leaving my youngest for last. We had been to see the teacher days before and although she was inexperienced, she was also bubbly, kind and understanding. I was sure that everything would go as planned and so I walked with an air of confidence and pride. We reached a brightly colored door that said Welcome to first grade. Other students sat at standard desks and tables, hanging hoodies and jackets on a coat rack, backpacks were shoved into cubbies and parents waved their goodbyes. The teacher nodded her head as if to tell me that it would be fine and it was time to leave. I gave a quick wave and returned the same way I had entered, leaving the wooden gate and parking lot behind.
From the upstairs window I scanned the school playground hoping to catch a glimpse of at least one of my four children. The recess bell rang and with it a massive exit from the side door of the one story school. Children carried balls and toys and quickly started in with their mid day break from books and lessons. A tiny figure stood alone in the large grass area, a hood tightly wrapped around the shiny hair of what appeared to be a small child. A stark contrast became unsettling as he crouched near the brightly colored playground equipment looking from side to side and finally giving in to tears. Classmates ran, laughing and giving chase, engaging in childish games that only youngsters play. Their smiles and shrieks of glee only heightened as activities progressed into throwing, catching and eventually climbing onto a metal structure. I watched him cover his face, firmly placing it into the school yard grass until a familiar figure with dark brown hair placed herself next to him and gave him the company he longed for.
Oh my gosh, that’s heartbreaking! I’m so glad it had a happy ending though. xx
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Thanks Deborah!
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Your welcome Lynn!
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xoxo
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was that a sister, Lynn? Not all kids are ready for school.
Leslie
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Yes it was my Deeja just two years older. Five of them went to school, four at that school and one in jr. high, only two stayed in! It took quite awhile to get them all in school!
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It would have been quite an adjustment….
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It was, they were afraid to go any where and so one by one they did not go!! Now they are doing well now which is a blessing.
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Time heals a lot of things…..
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You are so right!
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❤
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Having siblings is a wonderful thing…
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yes so true!
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Siblings can be just what’s needed sometimes. I love your writing, Lynn. You have the ability to paint such vivid pictures. I hope your book is going well! Happy Thanksgiving!
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Thank you dear Antonia!
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Nice post Lunz. Just goes to show that you have brought up your children well.
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Thank you Gary!
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That’s what big sisters are for!
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Yes!!!
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It is hard to see the little ones so unhappy and uncomfortable and then again it is touching and comforting to see how they are there for each other. Your family has had such a strong connection.
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Thank you Erika xx
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You are welcome, Lynn 😊
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Such huge adjustments for ones so young. And so hard for a parent to watch. Thanks goodness for siblings.
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Yes thank goodness
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Siblings. The one thing between us and the world when we are at school.
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Yes!!
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Thank goodness his sister was close. I was also lucky to have big sisters in grade above me. I am pretty sure they didn’t think so at times, LOL lovely story, I remember leaving my son at school for the first time, it was extremely hard to leave. He did fine of course, it was me who was a basket case. My daughter wanted to take the city bus to her first day of school, all by herself, she has always had no fear of the unknown. I don’t think I could of followed the rules of a different county. You amaze me sister. XXXkat
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Thank you dear Kat xo
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You certainly captured the anxiety of the first day – of anything, for everybody.
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Thanks so much
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What a transition. I’m sure it was daunting. Children are so resilient. Just look at your beautiful growing family now! 😊❤️😊
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Yes you are so right Kat!
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❤️
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Lynn, your post is so poignant and expresses so well the emotions of the youngest children. It is painful but beautiful to see the support given by big sister and your hovering presence. xo
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Thank you so much xo
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You’re welcome!
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Gosh! That must have been hard
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It took four years to get both of the youngest into school! It was tough but worked out.
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Well done
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What a sweet daughter you raised!
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she is!
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Poor thing going through difficult adjustments so young. Siblings can be a real blessing.
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Yes they can! It took another four years for him to enter school
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Bless his heart! First few days of first grade is very frightening! Thank goodness for his sister! xoxoxo Wonderful writing, Lynn!
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Thank you sweet PJ xoxo
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I love hearing about your memories with your children! Did ya’ll live in the states in 2009?
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Yes that was our first year here
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Awwww, your little boy was in a new country and going to school for this first time. That had to be scary!
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It was and was too much for him as well as others. But now they are doing well ❤️
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It seems to me they are all doing fabulous and that is because you had the nerve to get them out of the terrible situation you all were in. You are a real hero!
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You are so kind! Xoxoxo
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A sweet story to heal a frightened child. Lynn, you are truly gifted at motherhood. ❤
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Thank you so much dear friend 😍
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